I've had a good break of about ten days which just reinforces how awesome it is to be a part-timer. But over the course of these ten days, I've realized a few things which make that good break so-so.

• It really doesn't take much effort to be at home all day in my PJs just catching up on tv shows and movies. I've been on a downloading spree and am glad to say that I'm quite up to date with Grey's Anatomy and Big Bang Theory - 2 shows I really really do care about.
• It's been awesome spending time with friends one after the other. I realize that there are so many people I need to meet and spend time with and I'm working at that in all earnestness. I met a childhood acquaintance (I'd like to believe) whom I'd met very briefly when I was small. And meeting her after a decade or so and catching up was pretty darn amazing. It's nice to see how we've all grown up and created a space for ourselves to conquer our world, our way. 
• I realize I'm a phase person. And by that I mean I have phases with a certain group of people. Not a very nice thing to be, but I really don't intend to obsess about it. Turns out I have phases of when I want to be with particular bunch of people and I'm working on sort of neutralizing that. Of course, there are those I'm trying to phase out of my life for various purposes, but that's a different ball game.
• I've also spent this time cursing the crap out of how idle I've been. The being idle part was awesome to a certain extent, but the shit that happens to a person with an idle mind? not so good at all. Babska and idle mind are a BIG NO NO. 
• However, during this period of idleness, I've come to question some pretty fundamental things - friendships and women. Yeah. Mmhhmm. Women and friendship. Independent of each other. I've questioned my kind and how we function and how I really despise the ways in which we function most often. I can only speak for my kind, so I'm keeping off the male side on this one! :) And friendship - I'm beginning to sift through all the muck to figure what's for real and what's for a fake-ass show to the world. I still remain clueless on the same, and that'll take a long time.
• For someone who is pretty assertive, I've failed to say no to quite a lot of things off late. And it's beginning to tick me off. Babska needs to pull her socks up on this one!
• And this is something I know (but choose to repeat again because of its reinforcing powers) that I am the b***h I need to be. I like me for not taking anyone's crap and I like me for telling people that I'm not here to take their crap. I like me for walking away from people who don't matter, I like me for not taking unnecessary efforts to "patch-up", I like me for having the courage to leave and walk on. I like that. It's bloody difficult, but so rewarding. Because I realize that at the end of the day, you're all to yourself like no one else. And that's a cold, hard fact I'm still grappling at.